Dear Kim,
I just wanted to let you know that I have only just discovered your site and read the first few pages of the e-book Back from the Looking Glass. I am at a place in my life where I thought there was no hope. I used to be strong. Every time there is an episode it is worse and I feel as if there is less hope; even to the point of being suicidal.
After reading JUST the first few pages I know you are onto something. I know it like a truth so deep I cannot even put it into words. Already, there is a huge weight off of me. A few minutes ago taking a shower felt impossible. The reason I am so sure is that through all of this with my husband WHO I KNOW LOVES ME, I knew that somewhere the wires had gotten crossed in his childhood. I think that his mother may even have molested him. I think that there are some things that are buried very deep. And, I felt this at a gut level before I ever found you.
I also knew that part of what had attracted me to him was how I was with my 3 awesome children. He was looking for what he never got and was robbed of what every child deserves. Little did we know that he would (and that I would allow him) to drive the very thing that he coveted out of me, while simultaneously destroying and taking that woman from her children as well.
I don’t know where your book will lead this family, but I know that it will be to someplace better than we are. What you gave me today was a powerful message that I am not crazy or self-loathing because I love my husband. I thought there was something wrong with me that I somehow liked being treated badly and that I was deeply emotionally ill for loving someone who on the surface can’t love me back. It was a horrible conflict of heart and mind and I feel the first sense of peace I have felt in a very long time.